inception of metamorphis

=)

2006-02-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

I lOVE LINDA, YES I DO.

i dont feel like bloggin' anymore. maybe some other days. Till then,later guys.

=(

2006-02-12T12:49:00.000+08:00

It's her hair and her eyes today
That just simply take me away
And the feeling that I'm falling further in love
Makes me shiver but in a good way

All the times I have sat and stared
As she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
And she purses her lips, bats her eyes
And she plays with me sittin’ there slacked jaw
And nothing to say

Cause I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Cause she's all that I see and she's all that I need
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It's a masterful melody
When she calls out my name to me
As the world spins around her
She laughs, rolls her eyes
And I feel like I'm fallin’ but it's no surprise.
Cause I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
But I'd rather be here than on land
Yes she's all that I see and she's all that I need
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it's here

2006-01-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

ALIIGHT GUYS, THE DARN CNY IS HERE
let said this year is kinda different- no half -day for school, no need to wear red clothes, no boring celebration, no Chinese orchestra and lion dance boring US out. woops.

whatever, boo to spendin CNY in singapore! misses the snow, and coolin temp. and the travellin. BUT gettin' all those red packets make me shiver, in a good way that is.
dread goin around and puttin a false front (smiling at all those strangers that comment endlessly on you) and pretending to laugh when your uncleS say
" happy new year, pull your ear" HAHA! try harder wrinkled dude.

whatever, meetin the DEVILS( yea man) FROM MY Maternal SIDE would be FUN. oh yea did i mention i'm finally goin to meet up with my long-lost paternal relatives. 4 longg years.

later!!

21ST JANUARY

2006-01-22T11:20:00.000+08:00

=) what more can i say??
i cant seems to leave my bed, maybe later. back to lalala land.feelin' OH SO warm now.(cause the conditioner is off dude)

this is for you JAC

2006-01-21T09:36:00.000+08:00

cheerio dudette.!whatever happen(what's up jac??), which dont kill you, only make you stronger!

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i'll be okay-mcfly
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When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
It's been so long now you've forgotten how to smile
Overhead the skies are clear
but it still seems to rain on you
And your only friends all have better things to do
When you're down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost along the way
Oh just tell yourself I'll i'll be ok
And things are only getting worse
and you need someone to take the blame
When your lover's gone there's no one to share the pain
You're sleeping with the tv on and you're lying in an empty bed
All the alcohol in the world would never help me to forget
When you're down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost along the way
Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
Just tell yourself
I'll i'll be ok
You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone
Just tell yourself
i'll i'll be ok
Oh just tell yourself
i'll i'll be ok
Won't you tell yourself
i'll
When you're down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost along the way
Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
Just tell yourself
i'll i'll be ok
i'll i'll be ok
i'll i'll be ok

with CNY and EXAMS and TESTS right around the corner, the little guy here are suffocating!! but a little nice weggie dinner will do the magic..

i SO dont wanna to go for my pop's reunion dinner, i dont wanna let them see the FAT FUCK i become.
i SO SO dont wanna sit for the basic micro bio test, so gonna flunk it.
i SO SO SO dont wanna sit for exams.

i SO SO SO SO wish those could happpen. but bleahs, it would.=(
so its time to eat those pizza and watch some punk'd and X games.!!

2006-01-17T15:50:00.000+08:00

i really have nothin' to write abt my life. but i'll try, i tried.
i bought 3 hello panda: 2 strawberries, 1 milk. and nachos as in the tibist pack, peanut butter waffer and cheese and ham sandwichs.
i think i'm just destroyin' myself literally with my own hands. all those junkies i consume,.. man defintely gonna take a BIGG TOLL on me. and its CNY soon.and i'm stuck here. ORH, lord help me. hey ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING IN THE FIRST PLACE. =(

pretty borin' lessons today, except for the joking part of MR G POI. things are pretty shitty. so during maths lesson, i took up drawin. was practically blasting songs into my ears while i move my brushes to the groove (yea right!).so here it is :

drew everythin' within the first hour, and spent the next hour writin' down lyricses of songs. self entertainin huh.
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lyrics, be my escape - relient k
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I’ve given up on giving up slowly
I’m blending in so you won’t even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate

This one last bullet you mention
It’s my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go

I promise I’m going because…
I gotta get out of here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape

I’ve given up on doing this alone now
Guess I failed and I’m ready to be shown out
You told me the way and now I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m going because…

I gotta get out of here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake (yeah)
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can’t ask you to give what you already gave.
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity.

RECALL.........

yesterday night was just another lonngggg night for me, how i wish i could just pick up that book and do some studying.

i was listening to (on the way down- ryan cabrera) and was wonderin what's does it really look like when you're on your way down. so i decided to take a peep out. orh becareful when you try to take a glance too, kinda dangerous =)

hahas. half of my body was out and my legs was holding on to the edge of the table(table against the wall)

2006-01-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

blogg abt my life?? :

i slept with the stereo blasting last night, lights on. gees, must be too exhausted. pops woke me up around 7, luckily not my mum or else i'll be prolly be all bruised up today. i went back to rest and TA-DA i ws late. shower, grab clothes, and to schooll. nothin' really much. saw an old fren( np) in sp today and was like "woah, what's wrong?fell down a drain? you suck. " THANKS.

so school's over, went right back home, grabbed a big pack of super ring, cheeseballs, twisties, lays. and here i'm stuffin away. shit me. yes.

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mcFLy--i'll be OKAY
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When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
Its been so long now you’ve forgotten how to smile
And overhead the skies are clear but it still seems to rain on you
And your only friends all have better things to do

When you’re down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you’re down and lost along the way
Oh just tell yourself
I’ll, I'll be ok

When things are only getting worse
And you need someone to take the blame
When your lover's gone there’s no one to share the pain
You’re sleeping with the tv on and you’re lying in an empty bed
All the alcohol in the world would never help me to forget

When you’re down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you’re down and lost along the way
Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
Oh just tell yourself
I’ll, I'll be ok

You’re not alone
[You’re not alone]
You’re not alone
[You’re not alone]
You’re not alone

Just tell yourself I’ll, I'll be ok
Oh just tell yourself, I’ll, I'll be ok
Won’t you tell yourself, I’ll be ok
When you’re down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you’re down and lost along the way
Try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
And oh just tell yourself

I’ll, I'll be ok
I’ll, I'll be ok
I’ll, I'll be ok

14/1/2006

2006-01-15T18:34:00.000+08:00

I. Jesus of Suburbia

I´m the son of rage and love
the jesus of suburbia
from the bible of "none of the above"
on a steady diet of sodapop and ritalin
no one ever died for my sins in hell
as far as i can tell
at least the ones i got away with
but there's nothing wrong with me
this is how i'm supposed to be
in the land of make believe
that don´t believe in me

get my television fix sitting on my crucifix
the living room in my private womb
while mom's & dad's are away
to fall in love and fall in debt
to alcohol and cigarettes and mary jane
to keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine

II. City of the damned

at the center of the earth
in the parking lot of the 7-11 where i was taught
the motto was just a lie
it says "home is where your heart is"
but what a shame
'cause everuone´s heart doesn't beat the same
we´re beating out of time
city of the dead
at the end of another lost highway
signs misleading to nowhere
city of the damned
lost children with dirty faces today
no one really seems to care
i read the graffiti in the bathroom stall
like the holly scriptures in a shopping mall
and so it seemed to confess
it didn´t say much
but it only confirm that
the center of the earth is the end of the world
and i could really care less

III. I Don´t Care

I don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't care
Everyone is so full of shit!
born and raised by hypocrates
hearts recycled but never saved
from the cradle to the grave
we are the kids of war and peace
from anaheim to the middle east
we are the stories and disciples of
the jesus of suburbia!
Land of make believe
and it don't believe in me and
i don't care !

IV. Dearly Beloved
Dearly beloved, are you listening?
i can't remember the words you were saying
are we demented?
or am i disturbed?
the space that's inbetween insane and insecure
oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
am i retarded?
or am i just overjoyed?
nobody´s perfect and i stand accused
for lack of a better word and that´s my best excuse

V. Tales of another broken home

to live and not to breathe
is to die in tragedy
to run, to run away to find what to believe
and i leave behind this hurricane of fucking lies
i lost my faith to this, this town that don't exist
so i run, i run away
to the light of masochists
and i leave behind this hurricane of fucking lies
and i walked this line a million and one fucking times
but not this time
i don't feel any shame, i won't apologize
when there ain't nowhere you can go
running away from pain when you've been victimized
tales from another broken home

BEAUTIFUL SOUL

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you, I'd be always faithful
I want to be What you always needed
Then I'll hope you see the heart in me
[Chorus]
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind if you give me the chance
I'll never make you cry c'mon let's try
[Chorus]
Am I crazy for wanting you
Maybe do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
[Chorus]

PEREFCT SITUATION
What's the deal
With my brain?
Why am I so obviously insane?
In a perfect situation
I let love down the drain
There's the pitch
Slow and straight
All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero
But I'm a zero

Hungry nights
Once again
Now it's getting unbelievable
'Cause I could not have it better
But I just can't get no play
From the girls
All around
As they search the night for someone to hold onto
And just pass through

Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo

Get your hands
Off the girl
Can't you see that she belongs to me?
And I don't appreciate this
Excess company
Though I can't
Satisfy
All the needs she has and so she starts to wander
Can you blame her?

Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo

Tell me there's a logic out there
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come
Tell me there's some hope for me
I don't wanna be lonely
For the rest of my days on the earth

Oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-ohhhh...

2006-01-15T03:54:00.000+08:00

Whatcha doing tonight
I wish I could be
A fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealing your dreams

Why can't I breathe
You into my life
So tell me
What would it take
To make you see that I'm alive

If I was invisible
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am

SO WHAT, NO BIGGIES

2006-01-15T03:28:00.000+08:00

"As I grow older, I taught myself not to hold on too much hope over something that can't even be confirmed. The higher the hopes I hold, the more disappointed I'd become" -qouted from jaccy.

congrats jac.

boo-hoo kiong. you such a wimp, shittin over your own pants. yet again.

13/1, friday, what more can i say

2006-01-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

Should I? Could I?
Have said the wrong things right a thousand times
If I could just rewind, I see it in my mind
If I could turn back time, you'd still be mine

You cried, I died
I should have shut my mouth, things headed south
As the words slipped off my tongue, they sounded dumb
If this old heart could talk, it'd say you're the one
I'm wasting time when I think about it

Chorus: I should have drove all night,
I would have run all the lights
I was misunderstood
I stumbled like my words,
Did the best I could
Damn, misunderstood

nothin' wrong with the date boy, its smthing wrong with your brain. so what's the deal with your pea-brain, punk??

D night sky

2006-01-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

here it is. one of kIong fav. stuff -> the sky.

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NIGHT SKY (orion constellation)
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the orion actually is a hunter and the constellation can be easily recognised by the belt of three stars. look into the sky and you can find it pretty easily.

THE MOON:
so the legend goes abt saying theres a rabbit on the moon, and yes you actually can see a "rabbit" on the moon. its form by the craters on the moon.

p.s.: pardon my drawing. hmm i wonder if we can see chang er'. kinda cool if we can see her bathe =X *AHEM*

i made up my mind. i decided to clean up and out. =) no idea. SO STUPID

2006-01-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

today's pretty f-up. i lay around bed for a long time comin'
everyone's out. no lunch no dinner no supper, just bread bread more bread and some milo powder.( no boiled water too). but i prefer to be alone.

i practically spent the whole day tossin around in bed, doin what i do best. i didnt close the windows of my room and the rain drenched my desk. why am i bloggin? i dont know. shit stuff. mofo (did i use it correctly?)
guess too much daydreamin and too much layin arnd corrodes ma brain

slapped me once, got slapped twice. prolly would wake up after my face's bruised.

whatever

2006-01-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

Gettin this stress that's been eatin me off this chest,at least have the decency in you to leave me alone, do not come and speak to me
I don't know you and no,i dont owe you a motherfuckin' thing
I'm not MR. FRIENDLY, I can be a prick
And all of this controversy circles me, you point a finger at me ..So I point one back , but not the index or pinkie or the ring or the thumb, it's the one you put up when you don't give a fuck, when you won't just put up with the bullshit, you're full of shit.
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end-of-story

still a fat fuck

2006-01-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

i just discover that irregular meals will lead to bingin'
see , i woke up like 12p.m today, ate ma first meal at 1.pm., then have my second meal at 4.30, mum whip up some food at 6.00, which of course, i finish 'em, then feelin empty i continue to finish the loaf of sunshine bread ( is a full loaf). hmm at 10, parent was back from their datin and bought back pizza from the p hut. its a large pizza stuffed crust which was halved by me and bro. hmmm do that make me fat fuck, yes! am i bein sarcastic, yes a little. (quoted dr A.A yuen)

at home

2006-01-07T15:35:00.000+08:00

i used to think that life had a plan for me ,until i realized life had to be planned by me ,see thats the key, i only deal with what i can see ,cuz over history ,mystery --brought us nothing but misery

3 entries today, parent's out. i'm so tired for the past week. believe me when i' say i was abt to black out. its killin' me inside, but i guess its worth while.
so here i'm, listening to songs for hours ,sortin out my mood and feelings', bloggin down whatever that expresses my moods, bingin hard, tryin to get back to the rythem of my life.

but i came to a sad conclusion :My words which I ate them for so long,nothing changed it was just the same =(

maybe i shld start mappin' out my life. was readin tong's blogg today(yes i'm a voyuer. great supporter of all my friend's blogg) maybe a plan would do me good, maybe. but to those who prolly know me well, i cant stand a fixed life.

if you peeps out there who's just surfing around and havin absolutely nah nah to do, try this on your blogg. think through the topp 3 places you would die to go.

heres's mine!
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places
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3) new zealand, to catch sunrise, set, star gazin' in the fields that stretch over the horizon.

2) divin' of course! PALUA ,micronesia

1) alaksa. aurora. yes i want to see it. TOPP it all off.

2006-01-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

Come here
Please hold my hand for now
Help me
I'm scared please show me how
To fight this
God has a master plan
And I guess
I am in his demand

Please save me
This time I cannot run
And I'll see
You when this is done
And now I
Have come to realize
That you are
The one who's left behind

Please stay, until I'm gone
I'm here, hold on
To me, I'm right here waiting

I see
The light it feels good
And I'll come
Back soon just like you would
It's useless
My name has made the list
And I wish
I gave you one last kiss

Please stay, until I'm gone
I'm here, hold on
To me, I'm right here waiting
And take, my one last breath
And don't forget
That I will be right here waiting

Please stay, until I'm gone
I'm here, hold on
To me, I'm right here waiting
And take, my one last breath
And don't forget
That I will be right here waiting

p.s : frankly I'm sick of talkin' ,I'm not gonna let someone elses coffin rest on my conscience

WEIRD

2006-01-07T12:19:00.000+08:00

everything, everything look OH so weird.
juniors look weird,
teachers look weird,
school look weird,
i probably look weird there, judgin from the weird glances.

a blink of eye and i'm out of the school. yesterday i was in my bed, just night-dreamin about my sec 1 days. sec1 days of how i wish i could be sec 4 soon and sit in the gallery and the far end of the parade square. now lookin back, time really flies. =(

miss the alley, miss the peeps, miss the way i mugg, miss how we throws eggs on birthdays,miss rubbing chilli on birthday ppl, miss how we have to clean up, miss how the operation manager screw us, miss the morninng command i give in the morning, miss the pledge i need to give out, miss mc-ing, miss wanderin at the back of the hall during bigg events, miss the council room, miss the exco ppl,who prolly foregt us. miss....

ARH, just move on. no more uniform dude. not the clothes, niether the life.

2006-01-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

giddy spells cast on me for a week or so. feelin' so very weak now. break now my fren, just break down.

Stones taught me to fly
Love,it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon-
Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

FED UP

2006-01-04T21:00:00.000+08:00

oh its been a year since i last blogg. WAZZUP GUYS.
hahahs. yepp the highlights of the year for me is over. highlight = christmas, birthday, new year. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH to each one of you.thanks for the PREZZIE, cookkiess. thanks for the sleepless nights, late nights, adipose, fats, acne,dark eye bagg too. idiots.

=) i'm just jokin`

yepp so this is it new year, new age, new chapter of life. i'm SHIVERIN, TREMBLIN , whatever you call it, with anticipation. oh mine....(shhh..)

been doin my training rescue, advance rescue, training assistant course for this time comin'.orh the new term schedule: 2 longgg weeks of theory from 5p.m. to 9.30p.m each day. FOR 2 WEEKS!!!!! but i'm lovin it. =)
then we would finally head out into the malayisa' water with some ngee ann freshie. and it would be our turn to scrutinise their ARSES!@!#$!#$!
orh yea just for you lost souls out there reading, this is a chart of courses in diving
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SCUBA DIVING
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basic open water (logg 8 dives)--> advanced open water(logg 20 dives)
--> rescue --> advanced rescue --> training assistant --> DIVEMASTER
--> instructor in training --> instructor --> BIGGIES..........

yepp in between of the courses, you have to be assessed by the instructor, and you have to take specialities courses and stuffs.

VERY FUN. VERY COSTLY too. but why not just learn some basic diving skills, then try out in the water, decide whether you like it or not. then =) just have fun.
p.s: its very addictive, kids beware of this "drugg" your brother here's hooked up.

oh this is my longest entry ever, cause i'm waiting for my mum to GET OUT OF THE BATHEROOM> BEENIN HOGGIN IT FOR HOURS.

aiight adios my fella's.

2005-12-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

dinner with bz and anna. yum yum. st louis pork ribs.

i desperately need to work coz' i'm always spendin. man. thousand plus in months. =( aiight boy time to work. hahas for long. i'll try

and bz i want to join you!!!

2005-12-27T12:55:00.000+08:00

i'm so le bored. nothin'.... nothin' to do.

slap me once, i wimp

slap me twice, i cry

slap me thrice, i back-slap your arse right back to tang dynasty.

i mean it-

i just found out that in order to completely freeze an orange, you have to place it in the freezer for a whoppin 3 hours.i being doin this experiment with 4 orange since 8 plus in the mornin, i ate 'em all too. kinda tasty.

for lunch, i have spring rolls!!! 7 of 'em. cripsy, pippin' hot, watery( oily i reckon) . maybe i should spend the next 5 hrs thinkni what to have for dinner....

hmmm..................

when karma turns around and bite you

2005-12-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

so everyone out there is talkin about their new year resolution, they want to be a more beautiful person, wanted to be bigger, wanted to work harder, wanted to be part of the riches and famous. and of course, i have my new year resolution. that is to live life like its the last

imagine this, you're swinging your hands, whistling to your favourite tune on your ipod, thinkin about many other things, swing swing whistle whistle, then

WHAMP,

you got flatten by a speedin car??your pathetic life end right there. with so many things bottled up in yourself, so many things you want to accomplish, so many things you hope to say(e.g) how you would love to scold your ass-brain-ed brother for taking your stuff in your room. I'M SO NOT DIRECTING THIS AT ANYONE. but too bad kid, you aint got a chance. you're dead. so dead.

hmm its so unpredictable.anything can happen. as if anyone can imagine a tsunami can come crashin' in on a bright sunny day. now,my friend,wipe that stupid grin off your face.and go get a life and live a good.(pisst, this give me another excuse to laze around on my bed . yiiIIIPIEEE). *ahem* laalllaa...

D christmas

2005-12-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

happy christmas and a merry new year to all!! did i get it right this time??

so its christmas and everything. cool shit this year. MAN I TOTALLY LOVE IT. thank you =) yes you.

oh yea. i'm so so SORRY HUI TONG AND STEVEN.

arh i dont plan to blogg this christmas down. its just a blast. really. for more information on how the class peeps spend the christmas, check out tong's blogg. i'm just a lazzy bugger. i just knew i ate alot.

the SEA

2005-12-23T15:22:00.000+08:00

what's so great about the sea??

you'll feel sticky after hours in the water and your skin starts to dry up due to exo-osmosis, you start to feel giddy and migraines start to set in after hours to gulpin in sea water, feels tired movin in a medium 800 times denser than air, feel colder where water rob you of your heat 25 times faster than air, your tonsils hurt after battling the bacteria which invades you, bacteria than come from spits, urination, dirty bodies. you feel your mucus increases, your eyes hurt from the sea water. and many many more.

but after all the activites, you say " wow, i cant wait for more"

2005-12-23T13:09:00.000+08:00

*YAWN* oh man. i'm so freakin "shagged" out. nice daay yesterday! we get pretty angry, woops....pretty fun. okie photos later in the day yea. need to have my supper cum breakfast cum lunch. i am very very very hungry now.

oh yea 29th dec we are goin to the airport to send your jac&ben off. then we're stayin overnight in the airport to celebrate tt guy birthday.

why AIRPORT---

at the arrival hall, you get to see ppl huggin each other, jumpin for joy,--> shades of happiness.

at the departure hall, you see tears, sad faces,--> shades of grey.

at the veiwing gallery to get to see planes takein off, wishin that you could be on one of 'em and leave this place of misery behind.

there are so many QUIEt places, large empty places. great for hangout. the whole airport is pretty cool too, 18 degree all night through.

airport's just great. let just put it this way, it 's a memory place for tt guy. YOU're invited!! do come yea. we're just going to stay overnight, chit chat, play some stupid games (steven: eh, why not we play dare la!), music ,yes there would be music! maybe order some food. yepps. its pretty borin but i'm lovin every moment of it.

airport. OH airport. OH AIRPORT. oh oh oh oH oH OH oH OH. OH mum comin!! bingin time guys. BIG TIME

2005-12-22T06:21:00.000+08:00

its 6.10 in the morninng 22 dec. i was awaken by a bad dream, nightmare.i dreamt about a child and his mother watching their father bein beheaded(a video i watch a few days ago).lookin back on the bombin of twin tower, masscare and the war by iraq, mobs, riots, protest, and even NKF incident in singapore itself ........the world is black

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening

We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen

Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in His hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is He listening?

We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen, seen

We come into this world
And we all are the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame
But we're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

The world is black
And hearts are cold
There's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
(We can't go back)
It won't be the same
(It won't be the same)
Forever changed
(What will ever change)
By the things we've seen, seen, seen

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening

good charlotte-- the world is black(kinda old song)

oh great day ahead

2005-12-21T20:12:00.000+08:00

what a day!
finally get to rest myself. force myself in bed for 12 hours. dint really binge, but still ate a CONSIDERBALE amount of food.

i cant wait for tml!! morning dive in hantu.( should i bring my camera along?? but its kinda troublsome.) oh meetin the peeps inn the evening for buffet( christmas celebration) and yes, i think it would be a blast! with steve, mic, jac and guys arnd. crazy time guarantee.

i'm feelin so laallaall now. but it would get away soon.hopefully

back to lala land.

believe me

2005-12-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playing em
I'm just sayin
Think back then
We was like one and the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
Just like that
Now you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey
Hey
I used have a little bit of a plan
Used to
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo, what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

[chorus]

Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But it's not gonna work
Cause it's really much worse than I thought
I wished you were something that you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got

You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head when no one's around
What do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

:chorus:
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

:chorus:

Do what i have to do
You're on your own now believe me

What ever happens to you
You're on your own now believe me

What do I have to say
You're on your own now believe me

It's not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now believe me

believe me -fort minor

2005-12-21T11:15:00.000+08:00

I gotta make it out this place some how
Man I really believe that i done turn it around
You see, all I need is that second chance to show,
since I crossed the ration, my obligation of rehabilitation
You can punch me high, and You can kick me low
But i mean its gonna take more than that for You to break my soul
Man its hard for people to understand what its like to be, gated, incarcerated, I just can't take it, but I'm gonna make it man to see better days

thursday outin!

2005-12-21T11:03:00.000+08:00

okie why not finalise the christmas outin now.

lets meet 5 p.m at marina control stattion. okie guys. and yea. we are having buffet, listening to songs( please bring those portable radio if you have, CDs too), lookin out for stars? and of course!! gossip and talk!

mic wanna go out in the mornin and play around first but i join you guys later, AGAIIN, at 5. ask mic where to go.

still waiting - sum 41

2005-12-21T11:02:00.000+08:00

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in

Drop dead, a bullet to my head
Your words are like a gun in hand
You can't change the state of the nation
We just need some motivation
These eyes have seen no conviction
Just lies and more contradiction
So tell me, what would you say
I'd say its time to listen

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in

Ignorance and understanding
We're the first ones to jump in line
Out of step for what we believe in
But who's left to stop the bleeding
How far will we take this
It's not hard to see through the thickness
So tell me, what would you say
I'd say its time to listen

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe

This can't last forever
Time won't make things better
I feel so alone
Can't help myself
And no one knows
If this is worthless
Tell me
So

What have we done
We're in a war that can't be won
This can't be real
Cause I don't know what to feel

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe

still waiting - sum 41

time check : 2.01 a.m

2005-12-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna just sleep. just sleep.

orh yea. need to bathe.
cny is like a month away. orh god. thinkin of meetin my cousins. lookin inferior

oh c'mon dude. buckled up!!! no time for frowns.

a still screwed life.

2005-12-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

okie, so here i am, back from the mindcafe hangout with tong, san, mic, steve. pretty nice, but i would rather hit the kbox!

was out all day, went to nic house to do some IDEAS project, then meet up with the chit-chat pals of mine, play some GENJA. laugh our arse off.

okie. i think my life still screwed after tryin' to unsrew it for months.
this is a BRIEF overviw why my life sucks(from head-to-toe)

1) my hair sucks. i trim it short while i want it longg(hey it ryhmes~!)
2) the color of my hair sucks. i highlight it. orh no. DANIEL highlight it. stupid arse. now i just want back my jet black hair.
3) my thick eye bag (need no explanation)
4) my fuckin face fking packed with zits. and i'm not lovin' it
5) i'm fat. YESH FAT FUCK.
6) i'm fair.
7) i'm disorientated.

okie. basically that's why my life still sucks. believe me you dont waant to be in my shoess...

i want to be a better man. hmmm maybe guy is the word. aiight i need a change. i need the drive! so i decided to blogg my feelin on my blog. and yesh you gonna get it first hand.

i'm gonna blog when i'm know i'm startin to binge again.
i'm gonna blogg when i'm too lazy to do my dive trainn
i'm gonna blog when i'm gonna destroy myself, LITERALLY.

aiight folks. do help me through my trough of my life. i dont wanna fall by wayside again. i wanna UNSCREW MY LIFE> last shot at redemption tt is!

scars-

2005-12-19T19:08:00.000+08:00

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

scars- papa roach.

great. HOW GREAT! my indecision killin' me inside. i need re-assurance

2005-12-19T09:30:00.000+08:00

time check: 9.30 a.m
-mum, dad, bro's out. alone at home with me, my com, my telly, and my bed.

time check: 9.40
- cambell soup for breakfast. eatin it infront of the com screen. doin nothin else but drinkin the soup and starin right into the screen that is off.

time check: 9.50
- wash the bowl.

time check: 10.10
- decided to sleep again. blogg later. i'm so disorientated.

brand new beginnin

2005-12-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

yepps. so this is it. the 2 weeks break from the school term

hopefully i would make full use of this 2 weeks to work things out =)

anyway finally THE DIVING SEASON for me is here. local waters this thurs, and rescue courses 5 weeeeks away. goin back into water is being hugged tightly by someting you hold onto so dearly.

i being splurging my hard on my cold hard papers. but i guess its aiight to pamper yourself once in a while, especially when its christmas, new year and... yepps. i made a wish this dec, and i'll see it happen. but one thing i cannot believe is that i spent hundreds of bucks on books. suddenly i feel like readin again. i feel like i'm the wee kiong in sec 2 again. hmmm, is it a good thing or is it the beginning of the end. answers are well-kept by time. and we'll see.

yepp, i want it all. new age, new year, new term. new lease of life.

slap me once, slap me twice.

2005-12-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

i just shit over myself, yesh , AGAIN!!

oh man its killin' me. i dont know why this binging shit keeps comin back. even worse, today i stuffed crackers, i mean if its bread its totally fine, but crackers!!! one f king pack of crackers.( one big packs have 14 smaller packs of crakers, each smaller pack have 3 pieces of shit) i bound,confirm chop halal, going to suffer another acne outbreak. shit man ! my prev "banch" havent go off and here come the 2nd banch. how nice is my life??

oh btw bingin is not something ya can control, it just comes, without warning. i didnt have this shit in the past!! i have total control over my appeitite, my studies, and . my life? maybe i'm ' occupied' in the past so i would feel so empty always?? maybe?? maybe i need to be occupied?? maybe i should just go and shit.

did my emcess speech halfway today, chem halfway, gems halfway.how i wish i binge halfway too. suppose to hit gym with steve after sch, but gems peeps meetin up to cont the proj. if i hit the gym , i wouldnt binge ...wouldnt binge. so whats the point lookin back on things now. move on with life you piece of shit

my itune sucks to the core. not the functions but the shuffle options is like total crap. when i wished for nice fast groovy songs, i got slow romantic ones. and vice versa. so imagine this, when ya're down, sad, alone, you on this itune of yours, hopin tt you will have some nice slow songs?? and then it plays songs of greenday. orh man. and when ya're pumped up,prepared to move to the groove, love me- colin rayes is played.

totally wet blacket. TOTALLYY

oh whatever whatever whatever. ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

diamonds don't bling in the dark

2005-12-12T18:07:00.000+08:00

You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe 'cause it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Cause you don't really know,
Who is, the person that's deep within
Cause you are content with just being the name brand man
And you fail to see that its trivial
Insignificant, you addicted to material
I've seen your kind before
You the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with inscence sticks
With them vegetarian meals
To you that's righteous
You're fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
'Cause what happens when they take your material
You already sold your soul

just something to think about for this week.
(i wanna wake up from this sweet nightmare)

OEI

2005-12-10T11:14:00.000+08:00

rcently my friend blogg a pretty funny story. its about an affection between a lil' boy and a lil' girl. the story goes like this..

friend: This guy ah, apparantly, we thought that he was weirdly close to this particular girl, let's call her G lah. G for Girl. Sounds cool? =p I don't know, but somehow the chemistry between these 2 people is a little too strong, that I can't pretend i don't know anything about it.

Afterall, I'm always one of the first few to notice fishy stares and smiles among people. I spot scandalous smiles and looks like how I spot black spots over white sheets ok!

Anyways, if you're this guy, you'd definitely know I'm talking about you. And yes, everyone's talking about how scandalous you are too now. (: Really, if whatever the rumours are true, I'll only be here telling you, you deserve much better.

You deserve someone that's independent, sporty, witty, sunshine, smart and pretty. (Sounds a little like me, no? WAHAHA! Kidding!!!) Because demure little doe-eyed girls can never be able to satisfy your craving for ultimate sports, to travel, to see the world.

It is definitely too much for her to handle.

hahas, c'mon la jac-jac. i bet the guy readin this will be heart broken - what scandalous, statisfying his desire. man if i'm the guy, i think he need a break. i think he just need someone to come home to, cook SLOGGY MAGGIE MEE for him. aiya ppl can change mah. who knows what the edning would be. the lil' boy and lil' girl might try to acccomodate the needs of each other. gee... i dont think i'm the guru of love( but defintely the guru of sex =) ) so i just keep my two cents worth short.or maybe the lil' guy just mistaken the whole situation??
yepp bottom line : just find time to finally and sit down to do our emcees speech!!!!!!!! tt's D most important shit now.

life and what it should be

2005-12-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

went p.s after skool with my class peeps. steve, mic, alpha, sand, tong and me.
actually we went there with one main idea insight, that's to have dinner and get some idea stuff, but we came back with so much more...

after dinner, getting some stuff, pondering whether to catch movie, which ended in chillin' at starsbuck. we kinda just talk about love life, phsical and emotional relationship and yea. not forgettin caramel, peppermint mocha. then we went to istana park for more chit chat.

we chatted about supernatural stuff, and life.

life seemms so minute.

feelin strange. but i'm lovin every moment of it. hahas, i think the feelin would soon be over, replaced by the ever-so mudane feelin crreated by the pseudo "real" life. hectic schedule, projects date due. but hey dont forget about tt feelin guys, and girl. no one can tell us what life actually is.

if we all can casts away *things* we held onto dearly and talk about the ever so important, yet negelcted, life. we might oneday figure out the big WHY. gee if everything make no sense to you, it make no sense to us too.

if you're there, in there. will your heart ache??

, till the next time.

favourite food

2005-12-09T07:31:00.000+08:00

aiight, i'm bored. chem lesson bein cancelled and i'm up so early. so i decided to do something stupid. hey if you;re feelin bored try this!

----------------favourite food--------------

1) THE most favourite food that topped my whole chart is...... SLOGGY MAGGIE MEE!!!!
man you must be thinkin that i'm one big f ckin idiot to fall in love to maggie mee, which is sloggy. but but i absoutley love it. i love maggie mee which is being boiled under low heat for a long long time( till its slogggy,, duh). oh yea, alongside with maggie meee, cauliflower, egg(whipped up in maggie mee), carrot, tomato is a must to my most fav mee. and of course all of 'em must be cooked to they are soft too. man, add in some lemon chilli( er dont know if you guys ate this b4) and stir it. let the steam fogg up your specs. and then you slurp the mee into your mouth, and just let 'em melt there. you dont even have to chew. really its faboulous!! ( the way to my heart is cookin this for me. hhaas!! i love it to the extreme. gee why am i saying this?? so tt mum can cook for me?? oh please !)

2) the second thing that remain in my teaste bud is MANGO CAKE my friend made it for me. man i'm telling you, its darn nice. reallly swweeeeeeeeeeeetttttttt. its like... like.. man i've forgotten the taste man. hhas but i guess it would be a long time till i eat it again.

3) aiight, milo powder with condense milk. eaten this faboulous food beofre?? oh well i guess not much ppl ate this before.( i only find a friend in linda till now) try it. its nice. sweet. very sweet

yepps. tt's pretty much it for the topp three food. erm food that are made my me or my friend. yea. time for school. AWWWW f ck it.

badminton

2005-12-08T18:45:00.000+08:00

oh well, today we went to hit some shuttles. man it remind me of how we use to played in the past, we're so obessed!! if su you're readin this, we do have to meet up and play again. i'm really gettin rusty. VERY rusty,

anyhow, i think i'm sick again. the fever just would go away. maybe its dengue shit. hahs. then i would get to skipp the tests!! yea. cheers for DENGUE. bless me with it.

arh shit. so many bloody tests comin up, and presentation, and projects. its killin me.... yea right, as if i care about those shit. i just cared about how to spend christmas, 30th dec, 31dec-1 jan, and taiwan project. oh yea, diving season's a few weeks, er.. or months away, man need to get in shape quick.

i was thinkin of hittin the pool reall soon and try out my u/w camera, but lookin at my united states of belly (USB), it just put me off.

2005-12-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

starry

2005-12-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

oh well finally stars are showin up after their mysterious disappearance for days. anyway the night seems to clear up today and i finally found stars in the night sky. oh well. i still remeber the night i counted 21 shooting stars in the sky of southern china sea.

i miss stuffs like this. sunrise, sunset, stars, aurora( tt's my wish) are what i really love, much more than convertible, honda, mazda.. i'm feelin like a wuss now.

anyhow. things are always calm before the reall outbreak. i bet my bottom dollar that tml it will be pourin hard.

taiwan for new year. =) starry sky deep blue pacific.

hmm just some preview. most other good photos is being printed out and i deleted the softcopy. man.

wtf ^^

2005-12-04T15:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday i was out for a while with mic and i ate like 2 ice cream, peppermint of course, with bread and today some girl came knockin at my door and my mum bought 4 tubs of icecream : strawberry, corn, choc, vanilla.

i was sleepin when she bought those sinful stuff. oh yea, i was sleepin because i was trying to surpress the bingin monster inside of me. it's raging inside its cage. then i woke up after 15 mins of sleep, and unconsciously, i took the corn flavour ice cream tub, sat down on my study table which prolly houses more spiders than what insect world have to offer, and started eatin. just 15 MINS later i have finish my first tub of ice cream.

then again unknowingly, i went on with the strawberry flavour. F CK IT. i'm so fucking mad with myself, i cant even write properly now, damm i'm not even writing, i'm typing. ARHHH what the hell is wrong with me???

dec??! bigg deal

2005-12-02T20:05:00.001+08:00

yepps so this is it. 2 days into december.

man. i'm totally loaded with things to do lar. this is so uncool man. totally leaving me breatheless.

----the things---
1) 21 days iternary for a trip in taiwan( gems for backpackin)
2) emcess speech for food and funfair( some bullshit stuff)
3) i think its time for me to start readin the notes. most of the teachers have at least cover 2-3 chapters of the notes.
4) fuck ICA(in course assignment = CA1)is here.

man after ICA i'm gonna rock the world. yea man!! i sense that cocoon is breakin =)

things to accomplish
1) FINALLy, hang out with su and the LADIES > maybe in indochine, gloria work there, or playroom where su's the head of gigglo there =P

2) finally keeep my promise and go skating with alex. (of course with ally and gang. alexie remeber yar!)

3) fcking trim my hair before birds make their nest in it. geez.

4) hang out with class peeps for christams(hopefully, if you guys see this, i WANNA BOOK YOU GUYS! yesh you!!! )

5) yes YESH. clubbin with jaccy. see how first man. i hate crowds.

6) meet up with mao mao and clinque who i didnt join for chalet.

7) meet up with so4 peeps. sorry man, i break my vow AGAIN.

but but its still a long way before christmas. christmas............... hai.
ala! fuck it lar.i'm just fucking gonna rott at home. and get even fatter.
i'll be known as f.fat.f (fckin fat fuck) soon.

oh yea. the emcees stuff. see me and jacc are UNFORTUNATELy chosen to be hosts for a funfair for sp. and damm it, i think all seven school will be there. i just hope that those stingy buggers would just hang outside the auditorium and dont come in for the charity concert.
man i hate speakin infront of crowd. confirm, chop halal, will have verbal diarrhoea. i think i'll defintely burp out words like "bloody hell, that's one f ckin good show" shitty hell . and YAR!! PLEASE DO COME TO SUPPORT US AIIGHT, YOU STINGY BUGGERS

oh yea. one funny incident today. and its for my class peeps. linda is one clumsy girl,she can even lose her slipper on the way to school. man what's wrong with her.
steven, aven and michael are great guys. geez. can i dont do DA DARE again?? and is it aven or steven who like kelly form dche 1b02?? hmmm... =) llalllaa. jaccy's a girl who got cramps by showin off too much. yepps that's all i can conclude for today. and nic got 2 days mc off. damm it
christmas christmas. black one huh.

my dec

2005-11-30T15:07:00.000+08:00

This is my December,
This is my time of the year...
This is my December,
This is all so clear...

This is my December,
This is my snow covered home...
This is my December,
This is me alone...

And I
Just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I
Take back all the things i said to make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I
Take back all the things i said to you
And I'd..
Give it all away,
Just to have somewhere to go to...
Give it all away,
To have someone to come home to...
This is my December,
These are my snow covered trees...
This is me pretending,
This is all i need...

linkin park -my december

see the lyrics. and if you're illiterate, please slap yourself stupid. hell you're stupid to begin with...
anyway i had always look forward to dec. its the festive season, with christmas, birthday, and new year. but c'mon, come back to reality. its a time where you face a great truth. truth that if you're spendin the above mentioned dates alone, you are one f cking loser. but i always have my classmates and SU,ZX,GLORIA to turn to. so that doesnt make me a loser right?? yea.

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh hmm 2 years have past?? whatever, would not bother to count again.'cause i'm whole again!!! yea. but i'm still a fat.f ... ... ...dammm

yes yes yes, i'm shittin all over myself

2005-11-29T17:01:00.000+08:00

hey guess what peeps, as i'm typin this i'm gobblin down slices of pizzASS and saying "what the f ck dude, i thought you're on a f king diet??!!!!"

aiight,i know what you gonna say infront of your your computer screen ,"you're not that fat lar, talk shit only................but you're still fat"

but if you ever look at my sec 3, 4 photo, i bet my bottom buck that you will go "WOAH FAT FCUK!!"

i really did put on weight. and its not one or two kilos, its a whopping 8-9 KG.
hahahs i bet if my sec school friends see me on streets or if we hang out, they will not recongnise me.

man, sometimes genes can be so stuck-up. let me name an example. SUTRISNO BIN KROMANIO(my bud) is 1.83 SHORT(hmph this my blogg su so shut up!! hahas), and he's a mean lean walking machine. while me, i'm just a 5"7' fat f ck with a 39" belly. how great can life be huh!! in short, the beauty of grace is it make life not fair.
oh yea just to top it off, su is the president of student council in both dunearn and pjc, and is a 6 pointer, with lots of girls dying to stripp infront of him, bassist for zero infinity which prolly gonna rock local music market soon"

arh whatever, i know i cant be perfect , but i just want to be perfect, errr make no cow sense right. YEA if you are feelin confuse now, you're havin my feeling when i listen to adurey do her chantings. so would you please do me a great favour of enlightenin me??

arh why am i shitting all over myself?? cant keep promise i held to myself?? i'll try again. =) geez

p.s. if anyone feel offended, its not my fault. the f cking problem lie with you !! pardon me for my verbal diarrhoea

anyway today's just another mundane school day. but guess what jaccy made us cheeesy cake. man i tell you it rock. really. me and michael was like "eh you still want these shit anot?? aiyar dont want then f off lar!!" then we gobbled the chesse cakeSS down. AWW MAN, cheesecake rock man!! today we have RWP presentation and our grp: nicholas, jaccy, mic, fat.f( tt's me!!) have done no rehersal. but in the end we manage to get a nod from the GORGEOUS ms lim.(isit??) she young, pretty, great ber-dangs dangs( =p )

yepps. thats the highlight of today. nothing else. show's over. bugger off arseholes.

screw YOU

2005-11-29T10:27:00.000+08:00

man its been more than a week since i last blog. arhh heck it anyway no soul gonna see this. ... ... YES i can use this medium to screw anyone.

just another stuck-up day in school today. life still screwed for me. things just cant be better. i guess it will never be any better anytime soon, right?? yes you screw my life!!! i no longer recognise myself anymore. the reflection i see in the mirror no longer have any resemblance of myself. F ck it! i just wanna be myself again, i wanna let go~ i wanna cry.

i dont want to be reminded of the long waiting i been put through and still things goes down the drain. whatever. i'm just bullshittin arnd.

i'll be back soon. inception of metamorphis will officially commence today. take this blow B TCH-

AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH

virgin post

2005-11-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

so here i am, sittin infront of this platform which can probably cause myopia, writing about my life. i created this blog ages ago but didnt bother to post any journal on it cause i figure that no one would read my boring lines of words anyhow.=( i'm just a borin arse with my life totally srewed up, period.

its sunday, which means normal homo saipens would hang out and simply have fun, but guess what?

yea tt's right faggort- i'm stuck at home.

went to chc yesterday with w-shan and steven. man it's a blast!! seriouslly, the serivce really cool.people sing, people dance and of course people preach. but i must say the sermon's really enrichin. chief pastor kong told us about being single minded and focus on our goal. durin the sermon, pastor asked us to release the enemy/ hatred we been habourin- i let go ... at least i tried asshole!!!

anyway after the serivce we have our dinner with the shan's cell group. its quite entertaining i must say. we went home after which. oh yea shan got this job that she introduce to me. its really cool. if you're lookin at this, thanks WING. if everything turn out fine i'll tell ya guys abt the job. =p

today sucks. to make matter worst, school on. damm it.
anyhow its even week ,hopefully it will be a more relaxin one. yepps got to have supper and get fat.